Is there anyone out there who takes blame for them selves? Is there anyone who stands up and says I did something wrong? Why is it we are OK with pointing out someones flaws but can never take a step back and look at our actions and see our errors? People learn from mistakes but we can never own them. This trend seems too frequent. At work we have a policy saying "see it own it". I take it in more than the piece of trash on the ground. If I screwed it up I can own up to it. It is just a part of life, failing is a part of human nature.
I am not just talking about in my personal life but I am talking in the world as a whole. Just look at the comments made this past week by Harry Reid. He has yet to own his statement or see the wrong in it. Look at Rev. Al Sharpton at any point. He will call any white person a raciest but then when the finger gets pointed at him he thinks his behavior is acceptable. He is one of the biggest racists ever allowed to speak publicly.
One of my staff members refuses to see anything he does as wrong. He is a typical person any more. He wants the blame to be on someone else. Even me when I have done nothing wrong just because I didn't have an answer when he wanted it??? I just don't get why people can not own up to their own lives???
Quote of the day: If you have made mistakes, there is always another chance for you. You may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing we call "failure" is not the falling down, but the staying down.
-Mary Pickford
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Monday, December 21, 2009
What your not dead??
Since my life has been nothing less than a roller coaster this past year I tend to forget that my friends may be going through things as well. Not all necessarily bad things either. I have been there when they ask but otherwise I have been absent from all aspects of life minus work. Tonight I am going out with an old friend. We have been through thick and thin together. He is in a real relationship so I know he doesn't have much time. I guess I am finally snapping out of it since I am actually going out. Usually I just make something up so I can sit home in front of my computer and TV. It feels nice to be excited about going out. Nothing crazy our crazy times are on 4 wheelers and shooting guns. Usually he is the one I turn to him when I need to go on a drinking bender. I am not fearful of hearing about his awesome relationship...things are looking up!!
QOD: "We all take different paths in life, but no matter where we go, we take a little of each other everyhwere."
---Tim McGraw
QOD: "We all take different paths in life, but no matter where we go, we take a little of each other everyhwere."
---Tim McGraw
Sunday, December 20, 2009
You've got mail
Most of us girls have seen this movie and I am willing to bet most of us can recite most of the lines in it. Therefore most of us understand the title of this and have the general meaning of this post before even reading on. What I have now is something that I have never had but deep down been longing for. Of course it all starts out there is this boy...
No, I didn't meet him in a chat room, I don't think they even exist anymore. I have known him for about a year now. For lack of creativity we will call him Joe (for those of you who do not get it Joe Fox is Tom Hanks character in You've got mail). Joe use to work out at the Y then got a job there. For awhile I didn't think much of him since I assumed that he was just a HUGE meathead and an arrogant jackhole. He is very good looking, like the type that everyone notices. I made nice and just like anyone else in the Y I flirt with everyone... member satisfaction. We started talk then it went a few steps further. The innocent flirting turned to blatant flirting. Then I was hit with a huge surprise... he had a girl friend and she was not very happy with me. Not that I can blame her but she threatened me and my job. I didn't talk to him again that was till recently.
I know he tried to talk to me numerous time but really he lied. I don't dig liars. Plus my job and reputation were compromised. He moved recently all the way to the west coast. I was feeling nice and included him in my email to everyone around Thanksgiving to say happy holidays. He emailed back and we have been exchanging emails since.
I knew he wasn't stupid almost a year ago but I still just assumed he was just another pretty face in the crowd. Just a typical pretty boy. I assumed he had no story, no lot in life. Like last year proves I was wrong. Our emails keep getting longer. More personal. Just more in general. It dawned on me last week that I am checking my email a million times a day hoping for one email. I've got mail. If you would have told me six months ago I would hope every day to talk to Joe I would have laughed in your face.
He does have a story. He understands that life isn't easy and there are things in life that are nothing more than lessons. Now he lives on the west coast... go figure. He wants ME, Mous to come out there for a visit and I bet if I asked he would come here for a visit too. I am not a pretty face in the crowd. I am just average and I thrive on average. I do not know what I am thinking about all of this but I know I am thinking a lot about it. He told me I write well... no one has ever pointed that out to me. Well at least no one has pointed it out so quickly. He told me I should write a book... my one true dream.
Now I wait for my little gmail icon to open telling me I have mail...
Quote of the day:
What will NY152 say today, I wonder. I turn on my computer. I wait impatiently as it connects. I go online, and my breath catches in my chest until I hear three little words: You've got mail. I hear nothing. Not even a sound on the streets of New York, just the beating of my own heart. I have mail. From you.
- You've got mail
No, I didn't meet him in a chat room, I don't think they even exist anymore. I have known him for about a year now. For lack of creativity we will call him Joe (for those of you who do not get it Joe Fox is Tom Hanks character in You've got mail). Joe use to work out at the Y then got a job there. For awhile I didn't think much of him since I assumed that he was just a HUGE meathead and an arrogant jackhole. He is very good looking, like the type that everyone notices. I made nice and just like anyone else in the Y I flirt with everyone... member satisfaction. We started talk then it went a few steps further. The innocent flirting turned to blatant flirting. Then I was hit with a huge surprise... he had a girl friend and she was not very happy with me. Not that I can blame her but she threatened me and my job. I didn't talk to him again that was till recently.
I know he tried to talk to me numerous time but really he lied. I don't dig liars. Plus my job and reputation were compromised. He moved recently all the way to the west coast. I was feeling nice and included him in my email to everyone around Thanksgiving to say happy holidays. He emailed back and we have been exchanging emails since.
I knew he wasn't stupid almost a year ago but I still just assumed he was just another pretty face in the crowd. Just a typical pretty boy. I assumed he had no story, no lot in life. Like last year proves I was wrong. Our emails keep getting longer. More personal. Just more in general. It dawned on me last week that I am checking my email a million times a day hoping for one email. I've got mail. If you would have told me six months ago I would hope every day to talk to Joe I would have laughed in your face.
He does have a story. He understands that life isn't easy and there are things in life that are nothing more than lessons. Now he lives on the west coast... go figure. He wants ME, Mous to come out there for a visit and I bet if I asked he would come here for a visit too. I am not a pretty face in the crowd. I am just average and I thrive on average. I do not know what I am thinking about all of this but I know I am thinking a lot about it. He told me I write well... no one has ever pointed that out to me. Well at least no one has pointed it out so quickly. He told me I should write a book... my one true dream.
Now I wait for my little gmail icon to open telling me I have mail...
Quote of the day:
What will NY152 say today, I wonder. I turn on my computer. I wait impatiently as it connects. I go online, and my breath catches in my chest until I hear three little words: You've got mail. I hear nothing. Not even a sound on the streets of New York, just the beating of my own heart. I have mail. From you.
- You've got mail
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Neglect
This year has been long tough and never ending. I am glad it is done and happy to have my life moving forward once again.
WARNING!! This entry will read like a diary so please do not hold it against me.
David and I broke up months ago and though I knew it would be hard but I did not think for a minute that it would be this hard. The years I'll never get back and for the most part I am OK with that. I am still not OK with losing my best friend. There were lots of bad time and the one thing I got from it is how close I want to be with someone. I'll never get back his family or our friends. I am definitely a winner at a losing game. In the long run I am better off but I can't lie and say it hasn't been life changing and that I think about my choice daily but the one thing I know is forever would have been long and bitter.
The Y... AHHH relief!! I got another promotion. I am back to the beginning... aquatics director. It will be the death of me but I am happy with it!! :)
I started... I will finish
WARNING!! This entry will read like a diary so please do not hold it against me.
David and I broke up months ago and though I knew it would be hard but I did not think for a minute that it would be this hard. The years I'll never get back and for the most part I am OK with that. I am still not OK with losing my best friend. There were lots of bad time and the one thing I got from it is how close I want to be with someone. I'll never get back his family or our friends. I am definitely a winner at a losing game. In the long run I am better off but I can't lie and say it hasn't been life changing and that I think about my choice daily but the one thing I know is forever would have been long and bitter.
The Y... AHHH relief!! I got another promotion. I am back to the beginning... aquatics director. It will be the death of me but I am happy with it!! :)
I started... I will finish
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
A problem with Liberals...
Sarah Palin's note
Sarah Palin just put a note out about the unjust treatment of Carrie Prejean. Please read it http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1288165211#/note.php?note_id=81681133434&ref=nf
This person decided that calling her a cunt for voicing her stance was an acceptable response. I was disgusted by this and decided to act. Here is my response.
Justin Woolworth
Justin Woolworth at 10:04pm May 13
cunt
To:
Justin Woolworth
Subject:
Who do you think you are?
Have you ever met Sarah Palin? Do you know her on a personal level? She is a mother. A woman. It is her job to speak on behalf of her political party as an elected official. You are berating her for doing her job, is this correct? Under no condition is it acceptable to call a woman a cunt.
It is your right as an American to speak your mind but your left wing counter parts are trying to take that right away from you. Are you aware of this? Are you aware that you just degraded a woman because of her political stance with no other reasoning? You couldn't even make an educated statement on the controversy. The president of this country doesn't even support gay marriage. Are you out using racial epithets against him on his parties heinous blogs? Or is it OK for him to have a political stance because it is the same as yours? Way to prove what true ignorance is. You are the problem in this country. Next time you have an opinion back it up with an educated statement or keep it to your self.
The response:
Liberal Ignorant Prick:
You can only get pissed at me if you have not ever called someone you don't like a bad name, which is highly unlikely. Please shut the fuck I personally I hate the woman and this whole ordeal. I can only hope she reads that and it hurts her feelings.
Me
Today at 10:40pm
How can you hate someone you do not know? Commenting on a subject with ignorance shows nothing. The only thing you did was proving the point that liberals are ignorant and uneducated. You could have said something worth listening to, you could have made a point. Instead you take the the low road and say something completely offensive. I have NEVER insulted a person a personal level whom I have never met. You prove their points wrong you do not attack them. It shows weakness and a lack of character.
even more from him:
Justin Woolworth
Today at 10:43pm
I can easily hate you, dyke.
This person decided that calling her a cunt for voicing her stance was an acceptable response. I was disgusted by this and decided to act. Here is my response.
Justin Woolworth
Justin Woolworth at 10:04pm May 13
cunt
To:
Justin Woolworth
Subject:
Who do you think you are?
Have you ever met Sarah Palin? Do you know her on a personal level? She is a mother. A woman. It is her job to speak on behalf of her political party as an elected official. You are berating her for doing her job, is this correct? Under no condition is it acceptable to call a woman a cunt.
It is your right as an American to speak your mind but your left wing counter parts are trying to take that right away from you. Are you aware of this? Are you aware that you just degraded a woman because of her political stance with no other reasoning? You couldn't even make an educated statement on the controversy. The president of this country doesn't even support gay marriage. Are you out using racial epithets against him on his parties heinous blogs? Or is it OK for him to have a political stance because it is the same as yours? Way to prove what true ignorance is. You are the problem in this country. Next time you have an opinion back it up with an educated statement or keep it to your self.
The response:
Liberal Ignorant Prick:
You can only get pissed at me if you have not ever called someone you don't like a bad name, which is highly unlikely. Please shut the fuck I personally I hate the woman and this whole ordeal. I can only hope she reads that and it hurts her feelings.
Me
Today at 10:40pm
How can you hate someone you do not know? Commenting on a subject with ignorance shows nothing. The only thing you did was proving the point that liberals are ignorant and uneducated. You could have said something worth listening to, you could have made a point. Instead you take the the low road and say something completely offensive. I have NEVER insulted a person a personal level whom I have never met. You prove their points wrong you do not attack them. It shows weakness and a lack of character.
even more from him:
Justin Woolworth
Today at 10:43pm
I can easily hate you, dyke.
Monday, April 13, 2009
95, thats all I have is 95?
Last week we had our wellness evaluations at work. We are doing this program at work that shows our body's "true" age. I was super pumped when I was told my body is 18. That is almost 9 years younger then I am. I ROCK!
I am a competitor by nature and need someone to compete with to fulfill my highest goals. I had to pick someone who was in as good of shape as I am and is also a competitor. I picked good old MP. We have been talking and both are similar with workout habits.
He has 355pts and I only have 95!!!! I am killing everyone in my branch by more than 50 and he has 355!!! I am soo screwed!
I am a competitor by nature and need someone to compete with to fulfill my highest goals. I had to pick someone who was in as good of shape as I am and is also a competitor. I picked good old MP. We have been talking and both are similar with workout habits.
He has 355pts and I only have 95!!!! I am killing everyone in my branch by more than 50 and he has 355!!! I am soo screwed!
Thursday, April 9, 2009
I want a Luke
26 almost 27 yrs and I figured it out, I want a Luke.
If you do not know who Luke Danes is I highly recommend watching Gilmore Girls. Through it all I have watched and have watched over and over again. It is by far my favorite show. I understand when Lorelei says "say something". I empathize with her tears and the "The Way We Were" analogy about the relationship. I want a Luke.
I want a man who you can see the desire in their eyes. I want someone who loves you so much that they would pass up their dream house for your uttermost happiness. I want to be so blinded by love that you don't know he is there but know that I do not want them to marry anyone with absolutely no explanation behind it. Further more that they wouldn't marry just because I said no.
I want a Luke. I need a Luke. I need someone who get my quirks and knows nothing will change them. I need someone who I can't live with out and can't live without me. It will take searching but at least I know now where to start.
I know that I have started on the right track again. No more with this "but I'll hurt him" crap. I read a lot of books and I see a little in each hero what I desire for but even the height of perfections of Mr. Darcy, Zack Zematis, Edward Cullen, Jake Templeton and Davey Dempsey no shows more of what I want/ need as Luke Danes.
Luke is witty, compassionate, and caring. Also pigheaded and independent. I love the fact he will tell anyone what is wrong and how to correct it. He backs down from no one. I need to have someone who is not afraid to tell me where to shove it and to shut up, though I may not listen.
My quote of the day needs an explanation so before the lengthy quote let me explain something about me. I have been told many time I remind people of Lorelei or Rory. I only wish it was because I looked like them, but sadly I do not. I do talk like them. I reference a lot of things and talk really fast. I have done this as long as I can remember and have only been watching GG since 2003. This quote is a typical Mous move. Lorelei has called Luke after they broke up and this is the message she leaves him.
I want a Luke, period! I hope you will sick around and watch me drowned in my attempts :) I look forward to it!
Quote of the day:
Lorelai: Hey, Luke, it's me. I know I'm not supposed to be calling, but I am not doing really great right now, and… I was just wondering if, do you remember in 'The Way We Were', how Katie and Hubbell broke up because his friends were joking and laughing, and the president had just died, and she yelled at them and he was mad and he was going out to Hollywood, and, I mean, which she hated, and he broke up with her and she was really upset. And she called him and asked him if he would come over and sit with her because he was her best friend and she needed her best friend, and he did. And they talked all night, and they went out to Hollywood, which was a disaster, but it was good at first. With the boat, and uh, putting the books away. I've seen this movie a lot, so if you don't remember the putting the books away scene, don't feel stupid or anything. I was just sitting here thinking about it, because I, um, I'm in my house, and I was just, uh… Could - please come over. I - please. Really need to see you and talk to you, and please - come over. Please. Come – Oh, my God.
If you do not know who Luke Danes is I highly recommend watching Gilmore Girls. Through it all I have watched and have watched over and over again. It is by far my favorite show. I understand when Lorelei says "say something". I empathize with her tears and the "The Way We Were" analogy about the relationship. I want a Luke.
I want a man who you can see the desire in their eyes. I want someone who loves you so much that they would pass up their dream house for your uttermost happiness. I want to be so blinded by love that you don't know he is there but know that I do not want them to marry anyone with absolutely no explanation behind it. Further more that they wouldn't marry just because I said no.
I want a Luke. I need a Luke. I need someone who get my quirks and knows nothing will change them. I need someone who I can't live with out and can't live without me. It will take searching but at least I know now where to start.
I know that I have started on the right track again. No more with this "but I'll hurt him" crap. I read a lot of books and I see a little in each hero what I desire for but even the height of perfections of Mr. Darcy, Zack Zematis, Edward Cullen, Jake Templeton and Davey Dempsey no shows more of what I want/ need as Luke Danes.
Luke is witty, compassionate, and caring. Also pigheaded and independent. I love the fact he will tell anyone what is wrong and how to correct it. He backs down from no one. I need to have someone who is not afraid to tell me where to shove it and to shut up, though I may not listen.
My quote of the day needs an explanation so before the lengthy quote let me explain something about me. I have been told many time I remind people of Lorelei or Rory. I only wish it was because I looked like them, but sadly I do not. I do talk like them. I reference a lot of things and talk really fast. I have done this as long as I can remember and have only been watching GG since 2003. This quote is a typical Mous move. Lorelei has called Luke after they broke up and this is the message she leaves him.
I want a Luke, period! I hope you will sick around and watch me drowned in my attempts :) I look forward to it!
Quote of the day:
Lorelai: Hey, Luke, it's me. I know I'm not supposed to be calling, but I am not doing really great right now, and… I was just wondering if, do you remember in 'The Way We Were', how Katie and Hubbell broke up because his friends were joking and laughing, and the president had just died, and she yelled at them and he was mad and he was going out to Hollywood, and, I mean, which she hated, and he broke up with her and she was really upset. And she called him and asked him if he would come over and sit with her because he was her best friend and she needed her best friend, and he did. And they talked all night, and they went out to Hollywood, which was a disaster, but it was good at first. With the boat, and uh, putting the books away. I've seen this movie a lot, so if you don't remember the putting the books away scene, don't feel stupid or anything. I was just sitting here thinking about it, because I, um, I'm in my house, and I was just, uh… Could - please come over. I - please. Really need to see you and talk to you, and please - come over. Please. Come – Oh, my God.
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