So I refused to accept new years to start till February. To make a long story short 2011 has sucked thus far. My car got totaled on New Years Eve/Day. At 2:45 AM to be exact. Yes, totaled as in over 15,000 in damage... it was parked... don't you worry I am not lucky enough to be able to sue someone for being drunk and hitting a PARKED car. Insurance is kind enough to pay me 10,000 but I had a 2008 that was paid off so unless I want a used car with a crap ton of mile on it in crappy condition I am screwed. I have sold my soul and social life for a nice Jeep that I was suppose to get a week and half ago yet I am still basically on house arrest... because some drunk left me without wheels. I wish I could say this has been the low point but 2011 has pretty much all been like that.
Excuse my ranting now.
On New Years I grew a set. I actually proposed to one of my friends who I have a minor crush on we try dating. Well, with my luck when my car got hit he was parked in front of me. His car had 7,000 of damage done to it, yep as I said they were wasted... well over 20k in damages. As mature adults do we then drank night/early dawn away. The proposition was lost, to him at least. I do not even want to give him a name at this point. Strike 2
I have been without wheels for a month now... ENOUGH SAID ON THAT
The person who I go to for stability is leaving me. I am so grown up that I am pushing her away because I am so afraid that if I go see her I will crumble. She is only moving a few states South. I have no car, no job right now so going to visit is not available for sometime. She hasn't left yet but in my stubborn mind she is as good as gone. Right now I am such a weak person I can't even bare to see her. She is the only person who knows I have heart and it breaks.
Insert rant about no wheels.
I met a boy. His name is Jersey for this blogs purpose. He is great... he goes on deployment in 5 months for one year. He is also still on the dating site I met him off of. He treats me like gold. He is good looking and has the best laugh I have ever heard. I am pretty sure he thinks I am a typical city girl (clearly not the real me), stupid and this is because I can't seem to put a full thought together around him. I am sure he will only last another week because I am posting something about him.
I am down... can't blame me. I have looked at these walls for far too long. I am like a caged rat. I am considering gnawing off my toes at this very moment. I just need a break through. Moral of 2011 thus far never say it could be worse... it will happen I PROMISE YOU