Major Player List: Douglas

I have a lot of major players in my life. You know the ones who effect you daily. I figure I will start introducing them as I feel the necessity to. The first one is Douglas, my best friend. With out him I do not know who I would be to today. As a girl always around jock itch I try to not get attached to many guys since I tend to be the first voted off the island when a hotter new model is intimated by me starts coming around. Not with Douglas.

He is my own hero. I would not call him the man of any ones dreams then again he has projectile vomited on me many times. He is in the service or technically was. He is currently going to school to be a life timer in our military and I love him for it. He makes sure that the hooker of his dreams (they rotate every few years, he is a serial long term dater) knows who I am and that I am more than just a chick, I am the chick. I am more important to him than his military buddies and most of his family. We are very odd and we like just being us. I bring out a side of him that the college kids he is around have never seen. I have made him cry and laugh, the stories are never ending and I am sure they will live forever in this blog at some point. I love him whole heartily and need his approval for and major life steps. He sugar coats nothing and only supports me if it is truly in my best interest.

There has been many times if I wonder if we should be together, those moments are infrequent and only stick around for minutes. Since then I realize with whom I am thinking of and see him for him. He is truly my brother, best friend, Husband and son all wrapped in one obnoxious package.

I bring him up because Thursday I will get him a way from his 21 (hooker at the moment, whom I happen to love dearly) and I will also be away from my side kick (boyfriend, we will call him Dave). Let me give you a better insight on 21, we are very close and have become so through many trying moments in her and Douglas' attempts to live as "one". 21 likes to come to me for advise, but as any 20 some yr old does never listens (we have all bee that type of 20 some yr old). Dave and I am getting serious and I don't know how Douglas is taking it. For that matter I do not know how I am taking it. As it goes for Douglas and I, though we talk often 21 lives with him and rarely am with out mine. All I know is we are in new territory. In relationships is where Douglas and I differ. I like to see what is out there where he hates change and the getting to know you stage. I think I am permanently done dating for kicks. This may be it and I need Douglas' blessing to think about it full heartily. There is a couple other things I need to get past too and I am sure they will all get aired, eventually for people to weigh in on and to get them off my mind.

For right now I am wondering how to tell my best friend that he may not be the number one man in my life. Though I do not know if Dave is the "ONE" I do know what I am looking for and may just be on my way to finding that. This breaks my heart. Its like on Thursday part of me is going to die. I am sorry that this one is so random but I think that is what blogs are for?!